Couldn’t remember a time
When Ma and Pa got along and the ground felt fine
An angry home
The things you come to know when seeds begin to grow
But in truth this is a love song
Never had much means
Ma always found a way to gather everything we need
Pa could always file your lips into a smile
But the windows were always closed so the neighbors wouldn’t know
I was raised in the woods with a paperback book
Of how a family’s supposed to look
But don’t dwell on that long
This is a love song
Oh brother life got hard
I’m sorry for the anger you numbed with that needle in your arm
And sister it wasn’t fair, a lifelong cross to bear
So young to be ill
I’m the oldest, I should’ve known this
I should’ve been there for you, all of you
Heard your truths
But I was too wrapped up in running away
You were raised in the woods with a paperback book
Of how a family’s supposed to look
But don’t dwell on that long
This is a love song
With all our faults I love you all
With all our faults not a moment I’d recall
With all our faults at your feet I fall
With all our faults we gave it our all
Oh mama
I’ve fallen asleep at the wheel
I let them tell me who I am and what is real
These splintering bones jolt awake
And it ain’t here I want to stay
Leave the light on
Front porch revival
Body bent to this suitcase
Out here’s survival
Barbed wire to my soul
Lord please don’t forget my name
As I try to find my way home again
Oh father
the scars we learn to hide
Weathered hands and blind spots in our eyes
Words we’re taught not to say
Slowly choke on till the grave
Oh I’m speaking up this time
There’s something wrong
With how we’ve been movin’ on
This ain’t a life
Bring me that front porch revival
Out here is survival
Oh bring me that front porch revival
Out here is survival
This aint a life
The worlds at war, revolving door
All hands on deck to save the rest
She’s afraid he won’t stay
He hears the call and signs it all
So they embrace as tight as a fist
They grip and kiss as if this was it
The last time they say good bye
Don’t go she said
Without you love I just can’t
You’re what I’m fighting for, he said
As he walked out the door
Fade to black as the months pass
Dearest love couldn’t describe the horrors of war
Won’t even try
On the western front we’re all afraid
I just want to hold you again someday
Haven’t slept in God knows how long
Like I’m in a dream that’s all gone wrong
I keep your picture in my helmet
My love hold on, she wrote
Swear to me come home
It kills me to know you’re hurting and all alone
Fade to black as the months pass
His body grew weathered
Sunken eyes tethered to the moon
Hoping she was starring too
Stinging sensation in his side
Began to grow colder than the night
Closed his eyes, he is fine
He’s coming home and not alone
But in a box with a flag on top
War, what’s it for
War, what’s it for
Wakeup, pressure of a new day
Withheld words that I wanted to say
Thoughts I can’t take away
Feeling this way
Love dying stomachache
Go your own way love and I’ll go mine
My closest friend now is father time
Because your face I still see in the rain
Although I try to refrain
Friction stop this train from going all the way
It’s strange to see you here this way
Don’t want to call you by your name
Don’t want to hear your voice
Please leave me the choice
Search for emotionin those cold eyes
Like trying to find coal in the dead of night
Would’ve broke myself to shield you from pain
Couldn’t give, couldn’t be
couldn’t do enough for you to stay
I want to hold you one last time
I want you to hold me one last time
And I know
and I know it's strange that I see you here this way
and I know
and I know it's strange that I see you in the rain
It goes like this
You know it’s wring but you still take the risk
You feel she’s lying flat out
But you give her the benefit of the doubt
You know her games, you know the pain
Of burning in the flames
And you feel you’re to blame
But you don’t know how to let her go
Admit that you love her so
Even though she chose to leave you the fool standing alone
All of your friends say
never deserved you anyway
even still you miss the taste
And promises she made
It hurts to know
that she let you go
Never even spoke
all part of the show
It goes so fast
Can’t take your mind off the past
Find yourself taking the test
Oh why didn’t this last
You’d do anything to see her smile
Oh you’re stuck in denial
Out of breath for awhile
Her two year free trial
You know it’s time to start over new
You know it’s time to start over new
I’m an ant
I was never part of the plan
I love you more than life itself
Yet to them I must cower inside
I want them to notice me
in their eyes I want to be seen
I wish I could be what they want but I can’t
tiny as an ant
must I change my deepest beliefs to relieve the weight of their gaze
as they dismiss the thought of who I am as me
judgmental eyes before I speak
I’m a child playing pretend
a sham to the fires I tend
send me a sign
a washcloth for my sins
send me a way to communicate how hard it is to change
will I ever be good enough for you
will they ever support our love
will they ever truly know
I wish I could be what they want but I can’t
Tiny as an ant
Misty winter morning, I was trembling
Knuckles bruised, my tooth pushed straight through the lip
Dirt under my nails, dried blood on my hands
Lord knows it aint mine
cause last night I killed a man
Gold plated heart, to mirror your light
Break it apart, black as night
He held roses in his left hands, a shotgun in his right
Yes love he was your man
But would never drop either for your hand
I watched him lie, turn away when you cried
I watched your bleed and him take what he needed,
Oh I stood by when he drank and used words meant to hurt,
You deserve more,
So I took my chance and I killed a man
Misty winter morning, I was trembling
Knuckles bruised, my tooth pushed straight through the lip
Dirt under my nails, dried blood on my hands,
He and I were one in the same
I’ll carry that blame
But love I’ll never again be that man
I have a hard time showing romance
Please love give me this one dance
Take my name and absorb it into you
And I’ll say the words that I hardly use
Blissfully blind we are
in good time our hearts
I think I want to learn how to breathe you in
So I don’t end up suffocating
You question how this time around compares
Why board the train that’s bound nowhere
Your fingers sink through my skin like stones
Your words swim through my veins as we’ve grown
Blissfully blind we are
In good time our hearts
I think I want to learn how to breathe you in
So I don’t end up suffocating
I think I feel it now
I think I feel it now
